This afternoon was my uncle’s (“Bapang Pula” as I call him, “Lolo Red” to his grandkids) interment. He’s my dad’s twin brother (my dad’s “Puti” or Lolo White). Weeks before my birthday, and his youngest daughter Elsie’s wedding, he had his first stroke. We were all glad that he got out of the hospital fine, [...]
It’s raining again. And you know what happens when it rains, right? Yes, I’m there again. I don’t know if I can really blame the rain about how I am feeling now though. Maybe after a stressful week (or month?), I am now experiencing the effects of all the changes and challenges I encountered. I [...]
The rain, storm signals, earthquake or any other phenomena related to Mother Earth, have nothing to do with my current mood. I am not the best person to be with right now, I know. If you talk to me, I will drain your energy out with my rants and drama. You will understand, but [...]
Trying to float in a sea of tears, Trying to survive and hide the fears The world is dark and I cannot see Lord are you there? Please listen to me. I am crying hard, with sobs unheard I am in panic, everything’s blurred I hide the pain, and conceal the wounds Lost in [...]
November 13, 2007
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Afraid that what they think is rightAfraid that it is trueAfraid that I might feel the sameAfraid and doubtful, too. Afraid to finally take the riskAfraid I might be wrongAfraid that it’s not what it seemsAfraid of losing all. Afraid of all uncertaintiesAfraid of giving up;Afraid that maybe you’re the oneAfraid I’ve led you out. [...]
